t h e r e m i n i s c e n t s t a r - -
v2.o -star.
thereminiscentstar .
portia jolene ; posh * lene * (:
LALAPOLYPOCKETCHOONG ;
going 19 .
nafa svaf .
attached . =)
they call me starshine ; tinkerbell ; queenLALA*
191286
broken; and worthless .
hyper .
not what i seem to be .
tend to lose myself in thoughts .
daydreamerr .
sadistic .
black ; hotpeenk ; orange ; white ; purple .
lamee . extremely at times .
comforts people ; but yearns comfort from friends .
cynical .
imperfect .
stubborn .
bossy .
extremely fragile ;
has a soft mushy heart .
am redundant whereever i am . =)
yearns to fly *
je'taime .
the Man Up there . =))
him. =D
churchies .
EEYOREE !
monokuro boo .
cinnamoroll .
starrs .
my telescope . also known as my WIFE . =]
butterflies .
qing tian wawa .
windmills .
carousels .
dancing .
clubbing .
esplanade .
east coast .
southern most point .
changi airport .
marina south .
to be a unique !
blowing bubbles .
jewellery making . =D
taking black&white photographs .
photoshopp !
princess .
cousins shannon&jamie !
sad songs .
piano ; sax ; guitar . (but can't play any)
Sunday, April 11, 2004
sometimes i wanna give up. i wanna give in. i DON'T wanna take the fight.
a long day in many terms. well. good and the bad. i mean. life ain't perfect. nobody's perfect. you'll just have to take it as it is yupp.
things are getting a lil messy. i'm getting pretty much very irritated with the way things are right now. why do you hafta make things so COMPLICATED? i mean. what's wrong with having a close guy friend? like. ya. i mean. that doesn't mean ANYTHING at all. so people around. shut up before i make you? i'm losing it major. and yeah. i don't understand what CERTAIN singaporeans want from us. when we talk to guys. you think otherwise. when we talk to girls. we think otherwise too. maybe i should RECONSIDER my decision regarding april 14th. yes. portia's gonna choose the easy way out again. its always the case isn't it? i'm useless yupp..
therefore. ya. i'm disappointed with people around. here and there. disappointed in myself for giving in to stupid fate. i can't believe i left a less than 5 minute conversation change my mood THIS much. ha. ya. and i'm diappointed that i'm once again proving others right. if this is the way it is. den let it be. let it be. i give up. i surrender.
i
shall
stay
away
as
of
today.
i think i've pretty much said enough. period.
;elysium.
10:28:00 PM
eternitywithYOU.
Zen Neeon .
new laptop .
Christian Dior - Dolce Vita .
Corrinne May's 2 albums .
Plumb's albums .
Dishwalla's albums .
Nicholas Spark's books .
Levis 501 & Diva Jeans .
Chronicles of Narnia .
a new starglobe . =|
my daisy rock star bass .
